To Life by Jeanie Greensfelder

My favorite poems connect personal experiences to the universal, and that is just what Jeanie Greensfelder does in this one.

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Jeanie Greensfelder

To Life

On this odyssey called life,
a new me rises daily
and takes over. Each
thinks she is the real deal.

No going back. I’ve tried.
I can only imagine my gurgling self,
one day able to walk, then run, read,
and wonder. Memories present clues:

Age six, my two friends, sisters, couldn’t cross
our street. I could. The big sister yelled at me
so, I hit the little sister and ran across the street.
I learned about guilt and loneliness.

Without guidance, I made my own rules:
I had to be perfect or suffer.
The world had to be perfect. If only
I had devised a better plan.

Seeking help, I took Applied Psychology,
not knowing the course was about business:
I learned restaurants with more than one
cook and waitress have staff problems.

I didn’t know how to get along with myself
or with others. My journals recount ongoing angst.
Over the years, I understood more about my mind,
yet still puzzle on the mystery of change:

how the I of me travelled from child to adult,
who I was yesterday, who I am today,
and who will show up tomorrow
on this odyssey called life.

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